Taking care of yourself is like putting a warm scarf for blanket over your head and being filled with the warmth of I AM CAPABLE; I practiced an act of self love today. :)
I've been in denial for a long time when it came to my MS diagnosis, but today I did what I was told (in an authoratative black grandma voice lol) - I started my treatment! It can only reduce the progression right? Anything is better than nothing or even waking up with a legit physical disability. And we don't want that!
How are you taking care of yourself?
And I'm not talking about self care or personal care - I'm talking about doing those things that are a nuisance, annoying, "shit! I really need to get this done!" type of care.
I will share that though we get stressed about doing tedious things, the long term benefits or even short term benefits can outrule our Anxiety. BUT! "baby steps ARE steps" - I took my time to learn more about Multiple Sclerosis and gained more knowledge about the drug that I was instructed to take. Also, there were questions that I still needed answers to first - meaning I asked for an MRI, BEFORE I started my treatment; I wanted to know what my status was after 2 years and THIS was my decision to do what I needed to do.
I ask again . . . How are you taking care of yourself?
What do you HAVE to do?
If you're not ready right now or today or this week . . . It's ok. Baby steps! YOU ARE CAPABLE & deserving of LOVE, esp SELF LOVE.
~ deeply out ❤
Today I LIVED (for the very first time in a year)
Pray tell what do I mean:
When you cbnnect to history, then you're able to share your stories, then you find similarities (as the time had to continue being lengthened on your parking meter because the conversation was just going so well lol). . . this is when you know that you are accepting RANDOMOSITY (yeah I made up that word lol) but what I mean is that you embraced being SPONTANEOUS!
Connecting to history means
a past life, a post connection, a past friend, etc
past, present and future
Finding similarities . . . in mentaliy, with your experiences - your OG status (or whatever status you have accepted for yourself lol)
NOTE: For the ones reading this who aren't familiar with OG status . . . it's when history, knowledge, experience, hardship, & revival meet. When you're at this place: "I care but I DON'T GIVE A FUCK about pleasing you anymore" - this was her, this was us, this is me! It's when you can share your stories authentically and unapologetically, finding the validation you need for that day.
Take ALL of this as a WIN!
Even though I started my day off wishing I could just sleep, then it rained profusely, then I wasn't happy with what I was doing at work . . . a RANDOM light appeared.
Moral to the story is: we all need to count our small wins and count it as our "light at the end of the tunnel."
~ deeply out ❤
I do mental health check ins on Sunday evenings on Clubhouse, but in reality I feel like those check ins are really for me lol And I actually need to add a check in on Mondays because Mondays are A LOT! Whether you have a massive to-do list or you are hella stressed about the week to come - it calls for a mental health check in!
Last night & earlier today I was feeling bittersweet; I realized that I still have a bit of grief inside of me. Healing from grief, plus all the other emotions associated with it, isn't a quick fix. It takes time . . . so I sat with it.
It is so important to PROTECT YOUR HEART, PROTECT YOUR SPACE & BE CAREFUL OF WHO YOU ALLOW ACCESS TO YOU, more importantly who you share your story with. I've made massive mistakes with trusting the wrong people because they gave me attention, they made feel valuable, but I'm learning now.
You are precious. Your story is precious. And your feelings are valid.
People will do what they want, respond how they want, and invalidate your feelings or situations (unconsciously), merely because they don't know what to say, how it feels or they haven't experienced what you have. And it's not to their fault.
I will say this . . . when you get that feeling in your gut, listen to it because it may be the universe trying to get your attention! So BE CAREFUL and practice discernment more because your heart is begging you for PROTECTION!
Are you listening? Are you truly checking in . . . with yourself?
~ deeply out ❤
I think we often feel that we have to feel either or: Happy or Sad, Black or White, Calm or Angry and that there's no room to explore or honor the other feelings we may be experiencing. And honestly IT SUCKS when you can't completely be present in your high frequency. Why is that?
I think its because we have become conditioned that any "bad or negative" emotions are "un-cool" or unacceptable - which means that either it's a trauma response or it's a space where you can't be your authentic self...fully expressing yourself.
We tend to get in our heads and start to self-sabatoge, thinking that it's wrong if we're not feeling happy when something great happens. I will always use myself as an example . . .
Something really great happened to (for) me today, but after expressing my gratitude, in many forms, I shrank. Why? (Now that's for me to unpack lol)
So what am I saying , , , let's take some advice from writer, Najwa Zebian:
- welcome it
- sit with it
- have tea with it
- understand it
- let it leave
Now Najwa is referencing pain, but her suggestions can apply to any opposite emotion we may be feeling, rather than the MAIN one we should be feeling.
Most importantly, these deep dives into ourselves . . . is required for our sustainability.
So take the time you need, you're processing and that's ok.
Your emotions are not WHO you are, they are only WHAT you are experiencing . . . at the moment. Take a breath and know that "You got this!"
~ deeply out â¤
Who supports you?
I don't think I've ever faced a harder time in my life, then now. It's been the most heartbreaking, but it's also been the most creative and empowering moment of my life! I write more and I started finding my passion in different advocacy efforts. And I started off with the question: Who supports you because without support we (I) tend to feel that those crazy ideas we randomly have, or plans we want put into action, or even those deeper moments :) are harder to face without having the support, to either validate our experience, offer another perspective or give us hope! And that's what it's really about: HOPE!
The hope that arises when you're at your lowest or just need a quick pick me up! Hope is not only a 'spiritual uplift,' but also a game changer when it comes to your self-esteem and your sense of worthiness. Hope for something better is always what we need, from day to day or when faced with a life changing decision.
Now, on the flip, you may not always agree with your friend or loved one who offers their perspective, BUT at the end of the day... YOU hold the reigns! You can just feeeel what's best for you in that moment. So pretty much your friend, your circle, or whoever it is that supports you - is only your sounding board - someone who allows you to hear yourself talk or vent about whatever lol
Remember . . .
HOPE is so powerful! It's like the crack in your doorway that offers a slither of light! My HOPE is that I can always be someone who (with all of her imperfections) can inspire and make a difference in someone's life.
Who in your life gives you HOPE?
~ deeply out ❤