Past Connections

#wellnesswednesday

​How do you feel about past connections?
I will say that this is an interesting topic because sometimes reaching out to people you haven't talked to in while makes you feel good - when they are responsive; you become excited that you reached out. (Today I reached out to a childhood friend and the conversation is starting off well, so only time will tell).

On the flip side, I've also reached out to 'past life' friendships that ended up turning left for a moment in time, even though we still have mad love for each other. :) The problem here is that I've been yearning for those connections again, but there are 2 who have responded very differently.

One has decided to ignore my emails/messages, but my best friend told me that he's 'loving me from a distance.' The second (most recent) person has finally responded to my messages but has been very cordial in saying that it would be hard for him to open the door again. 

Ok. This entry isn't just about me, so what am I saying? I think that there is NO way for us to understand or be confident in knowing that where we are is where they are. And we just have to take each "situation-ship" on a case by case basis.

My therapist always asks me: what can I control? 

I will admit that it's difficult when you're managing something like depression and already have tons of feelings floating around in your head, then on top of that . . . you have to deal with rejection or grieve the person you once had great times with. 

So it's best to say that "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get. lol The only thing we can do is accept the love & care that we do receive back and continue growing, with more awareness of ourselves. 

I'm growing, so I know you're growing and tbh they're growing too. What's the saying "we have to meet people where they are."

"We have to release people from the prisoner of our past./Don't act like the 'situation-ship' didn't matter because it did." ~ Trigger AF Podcast
 
When people don't wish to communicate and move on, we have to mourn the loss of that person, in order to say goodbye. And by doing that you are caring for yourself and your mental wellness. 

~ deeply out ❤
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